if left in an empty room without anything but myself, could i find god? and by "find god," i mean could i have a spiritual experience without devices such as gospel, church, and other people? i've been thinking a lot about this because if the answer is "no," then there is a problem. i thought about experimenting this weekend... staying at someone else's house while they were away, turning off all things electronic, and closing the door until i experienced something. instead, i went to shakespeare's.

my need to be social may be a problem as well. i find myself constantly texting to see what's going on out there in san diego and making plans for tomorrow, the next day, and even for after i'm done with whatever i'm doing right now. part of me feels entitled to this: i work hard all day, so i can have fun afterwards. but then part of me wonders if i should be productive with my free time. should i be volunteering at hospitals and rescuing cats from trees? or should i be taking classes or practicing yoga? let's look at a typical alise week....
work = 27%
play = 15%
sleep = 32%
consumption = 9%
errands = 2%
other people = 3%
alone time = 9%
exercise = 2%
i wonder if these are fairly normal numbers?

recently, i had a health concern. details aside, it was some of the worst discomfort of my life. when it was at its apex, i thought to myself, "if this continues, just kill me." it's not as though my life flashed before my eyes, but it did make me think of what i should be trying to do with myself before it ends. the universe keeps putting me back into salon world, so i might as well open my eyes and embrace the obvious: DO HAIR ALISE! in the coming year, i will (fingers crossed) start cosmo school. hair may not be my passion but it will enable me to do my passions, which aren't very many or very exciting... eat, drink, write, travel. i know The Reader accepts write-ups and if published you get like $50, i should probably try doing this shit. or try submitting something to someone, i mean if i want to be a food critic one day i best start now....